As the days shrink to nothing more than slivers of light, lasting just long enough to dry the dew from the plastic on my newspaper bundle lying in our rhododendron. This warm sensation flows over me. Generating at the top of my head progressing to the backs of my eyes. Until that feeling converts itself into an uncontrollable tremor throughout my whole being. I clench my eyes and listen to the thumping of my heart. Trying to tell myself that I need to breath and slow the thoughts…
Well, we know what this does, right? This consult sets into motion the mother of all anxiety… PANIC !!!
Trembling, tautness of every muscle, sweating, twitching…. am I holding my breath?
Dizziness, weakness in my knees, tingling in my hands and face…. I had better sit down.
…came to in a daze.
“Shit, it happened again.”
Sitting on the floor trying to reiterate in my mind the scenario of what just happened. Completely exhausted I stumble back to my feet and look up at the clock to find that a solid hour has passed and still no real rationalism for what has just happened to me.
Uncontrolled delusional laughter and humiliation, mixed with overwhelming confusion of anything and EVERYTHING ALL AT ONCE!
This time too run-down to have another bout of it I fall asleep peacefully
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