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Liebster Award

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Hello again,

I am writing about the Liebster Award today thanks to a nomination from Jeannette over at her site, My Life with PTSD & Bipolar-Mental Heath Matters.   You can find her HERE.

She has an amazing Blog where she writes about Mental Heath topics. Everything from Finding Happiness, depression to Inspirational quotations. Check it out !!!

So without further adieu….

The Official Rules of the Liebster Award 2018

Each blog gets one entry. To enter you must:

  • Link to this blog post in your Liebster Award blog post
  • Answer the questions given to you (if nominated, if you were not nominated you can use my questions)
  • Create more questions for your nominees to answer (I’m looking for unique and creative ones)
  • Comment on this blog post with a link DIRECTLY to your Liebster award. To make it easy for me to read them all.

Entries start 1st Jan 2018 and ends on 25th Dec 2018. The winner will be picked on the 31st of December.

So for the questions Jeannette asked…

Nominee Questions:

  1. 1. If you could pick one thing you are most proud of about your blog, what would it be?

  2. 2. What kinds of self-care tips do you use while writing?

  3. 3. Describe your ideal writing space?

  4. 4. Write a 5 word tagline that you would put on your blog.

  5. 5. What drives you to write a blog on mental health?

  6. 6. What inspired you to blog?


  1. The feedback and flattering responses from all the followers that stop in and read … it’s just amazing when it touches someone and reaches out to someone just at the right moment that they needed it.
  2. Breathing and alone time…
  3. I love writing in a quiet comfortable spot.. in bed, or on the couch alone. QUIET… did I mention quiet?
  4. Can you hear me now?
  5. Life.  Therapy.  The desire to help others which in return helps myself.
  6. I just wanted to write somewhere other than a journal.  I was honestly just curious to see if anyone would like what I had to say…

So now with that said.. Here are my questions for the next set of nominees:

  1. Can you recall the moment you realized that writing was your outlet? If so, please share.
  2. What is it about Blogging that you enjoy the most?
  3. If you could hang out with a writer or artist from the past, for a day..  Who? and Why?
  4. The one place in the world that you want to visit but can’t seem to make it happen?
  5. What do you feel is the one thing in this world that your life is missing? What could you do to try and make this possible?

Thanks again Jeannette, this was a bunch of fun! Take care all and enjoy.


Posted by on January 20, 2018 in Awards, Mental Health, writing


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Sleep paralysis

Mystifying and cryptic. 

Gloomy and apocalyptic….


This is how I envision

the theater in my head,

Feelings of the colors

black, drab and dark red.

Barbed wire around my lungs,

stabbing, restricting as I breath.

Fluid inside my heart turning black,

Boiling vigorously begins to seethe.


Dark dressed figures are filing in,

organizing a vast congregation.

Eerily anxiously waiting for,

a humiliating public castration.

Never given an adequate chance

to stand or walk tall,

Beaten down relentlessly

they forced me to crawl.

Similar to being stuck in a dream,

trying to fight but feeling too weak.

Opened my mouth attempting to scream,

only to find I can’t even speak.


Escaping to a hot desert scene

where I’m lying on the ground,

longing for a sudden death

as the vultures circle ’round.

I finally awake

as my eyes spring open,

Overwhelming panic

as my body lies frozen.

Cannot move or think

wanting to yell,

ultimate fear comes to life

as I’m stuck in this hell…



© 2018 Joseph Emerson


Posted by on January 14, 2018 in Mental Health, poetry, writing


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Up the dosage 💊

Up the dosage,

make it more numb.

Make it so I,

can ghastly overcome.


As my subconscious waves it’s deadly sword

on a collision course toward my mind.

My conscious presence jumps up and down

and hails, airily cheering from the side-line.


Taunting, screaming, mocking and chanting

I wish to act as if I don’t have any care,

But given the chance to take em’ all on,

Without question… as it is all too much to bear.


As if my mind were not of my own

“Do as we say, and not as you wish”,

Like I was given this body and mind,

only to be trapped in a bowl like a fish


So, up the dosage

I will soon overcome,

the only way I know how,

by being comfortably numb.



© 2018 Joseph Emerson


Posted by on January 12, 2018 in Mental Health, poetry, writing


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Can I even write? Will it be worth our time?

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Early mornings I have the same routine.  Wake up, put coffee on, jump into the shower… now this is where my mind starts to poke at my intellect.  For the past week or so now, I have this appetite to write in comparatively greater length to my previous efforts, or to what I am ordinarily comfortable with.  I have a story in mind that I feel needs to be taken out of my head and dumped onto paper, or up into the proverbial cloud.  That’s easy, I feel anyone can really do that to some extent.  What I am looking for is a piece of writing that will, in the left hand get this idea off of my chest, and in the write hand, keep a reading audience engaged.  I would like it if others enjoy it, as much as I feel I will in the process of creating it.  My question is… Should I?  Do I challenge myself to see if I can keep a reader wanting to read on?  To create such emotion and wonder to compel someone to scroll down, or turn the page?  I guess I am searching for the prompt to just do it.  What do you think?  Write, or just keep dreaming?  If you have any insight or tips/pointers to writing in any considerable length, please comment as this will be my first exploration in “Real” story telling.  I am currently not certain if I am aiming for a short story, a novella or 2000 page trilogy here… or has my mania kicked into overdrive where I am delusional and I just momentarily feel like this proposal is even feasible.

I kind of just want to let it happen with no real surmise.

Thanks you in advance,



© 2017 Joseph Emerson


Posted by on December 2, 2017 in writing


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Keep the bow into the wind


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Keeping yourself on the straight path.

Retaining your primary course.

Periodically you have to go off route a smidgen if the seas get a bit turbulent.  Now there is often risk in going head on into the waves, likewise it may be just as menacing if you are going with them.  In addition, you never know when a rogue wave is going to come and try to bump you off track.  Just when you think everything is working as it should, BAM! Out of nowhere you’ve taken on too much water, to where the bilge pumps can in no way keep up with the rush.

All you can do is formulate a plan for the worst, but not so much as to shield yourself in fear of the unknowns of life.

Keep your head up in confidence and always keep your bow pointed into the wind.



© 2017 Joseph Emerson


Posted by on November 26, 2017 in Inspiration


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Dazed and Amused. The story of my…


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As the days shrink to nothing more than slivers of light, lasting just long enough to dry the dew from the plastic on my newspaper bundle lying in our rhododendron.  This warm sensation flows over me.  Generating at the top of my head progressing to the backs of my eyes.  Until that feeling converts itself into an uncontrollable tremor throughout my whole being.  I clench my eyes and listen to the thumping of my heart.  Trying to tell myself that I need to breath and slow the thoughts…

Well, we know what this does, right?  This consult sets into motion the mother of all anxiety…                                                                                  PANIC !!!

Trembling, tautness of every muscle, sweating, twitching….   am I holding my breath?

Dizziness, weakness in my knees, tingling in my hands and face….   I had better sit down.

…came to in a daze.

                                                    “Shit, it happened again.”

Sitting on the floor trying to reiterate in my mind the scenario of what just happened.  Completely exhausted I stumble back to my feet and look up at the clock to find that a solid hour has passed and still no real rationalism for what has just happened to me.

Uncontrolled delusional laughter and humiliation, mixed with overwhelming confusion of anything and EVERYTHING ALL AT ONCE!

This time too run-down to have another bout of it I fall asleep peacefully



© 2017 Joseph Emerson



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Posted by on November 18, 2017 in Mental Health


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