Slipping deep into my alternate
crawling in my own skin,
anxiety has shown itself
a familiar fight, I cannot win.
Near blind with blurry eyes,
clock says it’s only 2am,
yet my mind’s been racing
since, about a quarter past 10.
Fifty-some odd days
odd, is, to say the least,
suppressing my inner evil
imprisoning the beast.
Life tossed upside-down
Again? Why the hell not?
Life was getting too easy,
We needed to stir the pot…
Stuck in my little cage
grasping for breathable air,
snapping at any intruders,
“Please, don’t poke the bear”.
I’ve reached max capacity,
Sorry, I cannot control this,
It’s horrifying to even mention
the prescriptions that I miss…?
Although numbing.
I was near non-existing.
At least I was sleeping.
No turning. No twisting.
Now spilling my shame,
with my keyboard in hand,
the alarm is about to go off…
Again, it is time for me to stand.
©2020 Joseph Emerson @ http://www.whatsinsideamadmanshat.com
What's Inside a Madman's Hat? 
Great, sincere writing… shared it here
https://grumpysgiftspoetry.org/2020/05/10/keep-going-joseph-emerson/
Hope that’s alright.. if not, too late.. 😉 Jk.. cheers and keep well.
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Absolutely it’s alright. The whole reason I spill, dump, share these thoughts it to help others who are going throught the same thing. To know that they’re not alone. That these feelings are just a different kind of normal, that only a select few can handle. Thank you for stopping by and reading and of course sharing. 🎩
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Brilliant 👍🖤
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Thank you so much! Also, thank you for reading and dropping by. 🎩
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No problem! I look forward to reading more! You have an enviable writing style 👍🖤
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I can relate. My head has been buried under a pillow beyond just normal sleeping hours. Trying to keep the dragon tied down as much as possible but just not sure…sending peace✌️
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Same to you. Good days are ahead… Even when we don’t allow ourselves to see ’em. Be well🤙
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Great job man, a great piece of writing. Be proud!
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Thank you so much. That’s super nice of you to say. Thank you for reading, I appreciate it. 🧐
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Nice blog
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Thank you so much. That’s so kind of you… Thank you for stopping by and checking it out. 🎩
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My pleasure, followed you ☺️
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