I am starting to not feel so well,
I can feel pain inside of my bones,
The tired feeling in my heavy lids,
my mind, breaks free and roams.
Lord knows what I would give,
for a lasting dose of adrenaline
to light a fire up under my ass,
as my heart escapes my skeleton.
In spite of everything
with knowledge of what I should do,
I choose to sit here and wallow,
in a state of complete snafu.
Looks like I have hit a wall again
overwhelmed with social stimulation,
teeming with once wanted stimulus,
now time for some elation-deflation.
I can suppose that the majority
would love to feel this high,
but for me, the effect is painful,
tears emerge, then quickly run dry.
I know this may not make much sense,
I really did not expect it to,
but for me, it transpires like clockwork,
or if possible, a prophesied deja vu…?
It’ll come a thousand times more,
although I am never really ready,
when I am stuck in this state of confusion
it can all seem a little bit heady.