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Digging in the wrong direction

21 Mar

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I scratched and I clawed my way, several feet up

intuitive, survival instincts had quickly kicked in,

I punched my way through the tamped surface

a ghost of a chance, that I’d let the Devil win.

As I rose up to the surface en route towards the stars

I could feel the chill wind blow against my face,

I looked beside me as I detected a slim glimmer

a headstone reflecting the moonlight in my space.

My name delicately written in a standard Celtic font

my birthdate and yesterdays are joined by a dash,

every sense leaves me in the pulse of my heartbeat

as it feels that my presence turned to dust in a flash.

Too late for regrets, and denial is too long overdue

to die with great dignity and respect I cannot save,

I just have to lie with the realization that I,

have wasted my entire existence digging my grave.

 

 

© 2018 Joseph Emerson @ WhatsInsideAMadmansHat.com

 
36 Comments

Posted by on March 21, 2018 in poetry, Uncategorized, writing

 

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36 responses to “Digging in the wrong direction

  1. lovesdeepwaters

    March 20, 2018 at 3:38 pm

    These words carried me to a “FFDP” music video that my husband used to watch quite often. This must describe how he felt as the walls were closing in around him.

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    • Joseph Emerson

      March 20, 2018 at 3:45 pm

      Not sure what ffdp is? Thank you for reading 👍

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      • lovesdeepwaters

        March 20, 2018 at 3:49 pm

        Heavy Metal, five finger death punch

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      • Joseph Emerson

        March 20, 2018 at 3:55 pm

        Oh ok. Yes I’ve heard of them. Not sure if I know of their stuff. I’m sure I’ve heard something.

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      • lovesdeepwaters

        March 20, 2018 at 3:59 pm

        He became obsessed with the hate songs as he spiraled. They do have meaningful music though and great talent. The song I’m thinking of is “I Apologise”. I just prefer the positiveness of RED.

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      • Joseph Emerson

        March 20, 2018 at 4:08 pm

        I’ll definitely check it out on YouTube

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  2. myloudbipolarwhispers

    March 20, 2018 at 4:30 pm

    Woah. That was intense… very good. You are amazing.

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    • Joseph Emerson

      March 20, 2018 at 4:37 pm

      Thank you for reading and for your more than kind words of encouragement. It means the world. 😊

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  3. Penny Wilson Writes

    March 20, 2018 at 4:39 pm

    Wow… powerful! Love it!

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  4. tanjabrittonwriter

    March 20, 2018 at 8:48 pm

    Powerful, yes. But soooo dark! I hope you are ok!

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    • Joseph Emerson

      March 20, 2018 at 8:50 pm

      Yes. A reflection on something I had written in a journal back in September of 2017. Weird and very dark times. Still fueling art this many months later. Thank you for reading👌

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  5. braedenmichaels

    March 21, 2018 at 1:37 am

    This is really good!

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  6. BeckiesMentalMess.wordpress.com

    March 21, 2018 at 9:46 am

    Fine writing my friend, very intense. 🙂

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  7. Will Pennington

    March 21, 2018 at 10:46 am

    I was reflecting on a purposeless life and second chances earlier today, then I read this. You sum up well what most people feel at some time.
    Reblogging on http://www.writersenvy.me.

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  8. RhapsodyBoheme

    March 21, 2018 at 7:30 pm

    Amazing and powerful as always. You make me skip a few breaths

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    • Joseph Emerson

      March 21, 2018 at 8:42 pm

      Thank you so much. These past few pieces were inspired by going through some old journals from last fall. A very weird and dark time. Glad you liked it.

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      • RhapsodyBoheme

        March 22, 2018 at 1:22 pm

        In most cases it is the dark moments that mold us and inspire the most creative pieces. Not all that bad 😉

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      • Joseph Emerson

        March 22, 2018 at 1:24 pm

        Very true. I feel like this is the time in my life that I have experienced all or most of the extremes that life has to offer and it has given me tons of material. That is not only healing for me but it seems to help a lot of others as well

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      • RhapsodyBoheme

        March 22, 2018 at 1:49 pm

        True and people need something relatable and a feeling that they are not alone. Thank you for doing all that you do. You are wonderful and you are a gift.

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      • Joseph Emerson

        March 22, 2018 at 1:51 pm

        As always, thank you so much! Hope all is well. Whenever I see a post from you or I get a like on one of my writings I think about your mom. ✌️

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      • RhapsodyBoheme

        March 22, 2018 at 1:53 pm

        Thank you so much Joseph. It means so much and I appreciate you as you understand the situation at hand. Hugs

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  9. ortensia

    March 21, 2018 at 7:37 pm

    So intense.beautifully expressed

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  10. Silver Screenings

    March 22, 2018 at 10:01 am

    Ooh – great atmosphere here. Nicely done!

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  11. Kae Bucher

    March 22, 2018 at 6:37 pm

    Wow !!!… powerful

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