I am starting to not feel so well,
I can feel pain inside of my bones,
The tired feeling in my heavy lids,
my mind, breaks free and roams.
Lord knows what I would give,
for a lasting dose of adrenaline
to light a fire up under my ass,
as my heart escapes my skeleton.
In spite of everything
with knowledge of what I should do,
I choose to sit here and wallow,
in a state of complete snafu.
Looks like I have hit a wall again
overwhelmed with social stimulation,
teeming with once wanted stimulus,
now time for some elation-deflation.
I can suppose that the majority
would love to feel this high,
but for me, the effect is painful,
tears emerge, then quickly run dry.
I know this may not make much sense,
I really did not expect it to,
but for me, it transpires like clockwork,
or if possible, a prophesied deja vu…?
It’ll come a thousand times more,
although I am never really ready,
when I am stuck in this state of confusion
it can all seem a little bit heady.
It’s good to put these things down on paper, and yes, share them. It’s a release, and perhaps you’ve helped someone else along the way. Good to see you writing 😊
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Thank you. Feels good to be back at it. 🎩
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Great! Keep going! 😊
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Ha, I know this feeling.. hope you manage to get out of it.
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Me too…. ‘Tis the season for me.
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Yep.. with me it’s when I really want to focus, then it feels as though my mind starts doing everything it can to stop me doing that.
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Great poem and drawing as well. I can understand your poem. I understand it completely as I have lived it as well. I am sorry that things are becoming difficult for you. I pray you feel better soon. Keep keeping on. You will make it. You are an amazing and strong person. Peace and blessings, Sue
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Thank you for this. I feel much better after I write it all out of me. 🎩
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I love that. “I feel much better after I write it all out of me.” That is exactly it. That is why writing is so therapeutic. I feel the same way. Sometimes I don’t even know what I am writing or why. I just feel the need to write it out of me like you said. I feel the need to express myself and get my emotions out. When I am finished I feel much better. Like I talked my way through it as I was writing. I get it. Thank you Joseph.
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I feel like it’s easier to spill it all out here rather than sit and drain my family.
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Yes I agree. I feel like people in this blogging community get it better anyway. They understand and can relate…
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absolutely. agreed
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