The bright white round one is to lift me up,
plus an off-white oblong one to help calm me down.
It may seem a little illogical and unreasonable,
also, I can’t promise you, they’ll keep away the frown.
You may say that it seems rather counterintuitive
like taking out a loan to pay off an equal debt,
or purchasing a million dollars in lottery tickets to,
win a million dollars? seemingly the worlds stupidest bet.
But the thing is, I have been feeling much better
since I have been traveling along this new path,
It beats the hell out of the alternative side of me
when the anxiety and depression are on a warpath.
I don’t like being torn down, limb by limb like a tree
that’s vulnerable to a logger wielding his chainsaw,
or being trapped by my dark isolating depression
like a frozen duck stuck in the ice just waiting to thaw.
I’ve tried to do this the “natural way” but to no avail
as the craziness inside increased and grew much stronger,
So I may not be completely against feeling a bit dazed
if it means that I won’t feel that profound pain any longer.
© 2018 Joseph Emerson @ WhatsInsideAMadmansHat.com