Tired tears and lullaby’s

Mental Health, poetry, writing 23 comments

so tired

Late night,

no sleep,

it’s been a while,

countless sheep.

That same ole’ cow

jumps over the moon,

I sure do hope

the fat lady sings soon.

So hopeful all this

will finally be over,

longing for a dreamland

a seamless crossover.

Delirious,

crazy,

maniacal,

mad.

Although the funny thing is,

that my shaking isn’t bad…..? Huh….

Beyond feeling tired,

my eyes tear up and drain

anxiety turns to depression,

from bottling the pain.

The thought’s start

no end in sight,

my mind races constantly

another wasted night.

 

© 2018 Joseph Emerson @ WhatsInsideAMadmansHat.com

 

 

23 comments

  1. I have insomnia most nights. And since I’m an alcoholic, I’m limited in what I can take (nothing addictive). Melatonin and Benadryl pretty much. I’ve tried other, non-addictive meds and have had issues with them all. I used to use Xanax. Not the right reason to use it, but it worked.

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  6. I know the feeling. You described it well. I long for sleep but dread that moment when I turn off the lights and attempt to shut down my mind. I think perhaps all creative people might have difficulty going to sleep. My body naturally decided it was nocturnal back in college when I did my best work at 3 am and strolled into class at noon. In the 36 years I taught I doubt I got more than 4 hours a night and just survived day by day on adrenaline. I think perhaps I consciously put off going to sleep because I never know who will visit me in my dreams. So many souls trying to tell me their story and I can’t help them all. But that’s a discussion for another day.

    I’m sorry you have trouble sleeping. It’s maddening, I know. I’ve learned to create stories in my mind as I lie there and that helps a bit. I’m glad you are writing about your experiences and turning the unpleasant into a thing of beauty through Poetry. That’s what artists do….

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    1. Thank you so much. Another thing that drives me mad is when I forget a pen or my phone is across the room and I have a writing idea and I take off with it.. to finally wake up in the morning like “damn it, I knew it was awesome why can’t I remember it?” If I had it my way I would live my life at night. Unfortunately, my office has to be opened during the day. BOO. Thanks again for reading and stopping in.

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  8. Hahaha. I have always had a fascination with them. Imagine having the experience and wisdom as well as the pain of centuries in your brain…what a burden that would be!!! I am actually 12 chapters in writing a vampire mystery- dedective- love story. The prologue is on one of my wordpress posts. It is called Crimson Widow. Check it out…. I’ll finish it one of these days… But the first 12 chapters are working really well….

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