Up the dosage,
make it more numb.
Make it so I,
can ghastly overcome.
π
As my subconscious waves it’s deadly sword
on a collision course toward my mind.
My conscious presence jumps up and down
and hails, airily cheering from the side-line.
π‘
Taunting, screaming, mocking and chanting
I wish to act as if I don’t have any care,
But given the chance to take em’ all on,
Without question… as it is all too much to bear.
π€ΌββοΈ
As if my mind were not of my own
“Do as we say, and not as you wish”,
Like I was given this body and mind,
only to be trapped in a bowl like a fish
π
So, up the dosage
I will soon overcome,
the only way I know how,
by being comfortably numb.
π
Β© 2018 Joseph Emerson WhatsInsideAMadmansHat.com
Too much truth in this one. It really strikes close to the heart…and mind.
Excellent! π―
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Thank you so much. π
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So true. When we get worse our medications increase. Never the happy medium we dream to achieve
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Exactly. Wishing for a miracle pill. I know there is no such thing… Nice to dream. Thanks for reading !
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Nice writing π
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Thank you. Thanks for reading! ππΌ
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Ugh, hang in there buddy! Hopefully you can find a way without them one day, thats the goal!
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Yes. Thanks. It is the better alternative though… Controlled by doctor’s. I “self-medicated” for way too long. Today January 13th marks my 1 year of sobriety of drinking and recreational drugs! Thanks for readingπ
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Wow thats incredible!!! So much respect for your sobriety, I’d really like to try to moderate my drinking more. Maybe not entire sobriety, but substantially less than last year haha. Good start so far in 2018 π
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I just do not understand “moderation”. Haha. Well, I know what it means… My body just keeps wanting more. Had to realize that. Everyone around me is so much more at ease and that helps my mind relax. Thanks again.
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Very well put. It is difficult to find the right balance between being ‘evened out’ and numbed. Sometimes, as hard as it might seem, it’s better to live with the extremes.
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Yeah I guess. Except my job and loved ones can’t handle it… or myself for that matter. It can always be worse… Thanks for reading !
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True!
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